Some of my ideas have been poor, some good, some dreadful. I do not have control over which ideas are or have been enacted as I’m not in power or a position to enact anything, I’m relatively poor and have no employees or position. Most of my ideas were and should be discarded, it is not good or reasonable for anything else. Dictatorships, a type of government I am theoretically against, use many and a wide range of advisors, which enable better ideas to rise through debate and discussion, modelling and rationality, to produce better and more thoughtful ones. I almost died for speaking of the benefits of open debate, used by charities and citizens alike, and have had ten years of attempts on my life for writing a discussion of how a fact checked, preened, monitored online debating and potentially voting platform could possibly support charitable and peaceful aims. Even if the power of these online spaces was only used by cities, or cantons, in the example of places such as Switzerland, for their own regions, and without voting in places it isn’t pre-existing, it could be used to raise important ideas, yet to be thought of by central government. The UK’s Royal Family decided this devolved their ability to exert power, and they have been trying to kill me ever since. The theory of what I had spoken, had been conceived and put into practice independently in Spain and Switzerland etc, much as similar ideas can develop in isolation. In Spain this platform had been used for charities expression along with the public. I spoke openly about how it could be used in Britain, and possibly Europe. After I wrote it I knew I risked my life and decided to delete it, but never did, such is the unknown and randomness.

Regarding my own free speech and the extent it has been listened to, I only ever wanted to have a voice of reason, when my voice was most reasonable, which principally would be through writing, only occasionally through speaking on politics. Writing has been said to be the ordering and sorting of one’s own personal ideas. And it certainly is for me, much is deleted from the crap in my mind when things are written, new thoughts are discovered and hope better is presented for the self or reader. The proportion of internal thoughts being deleted or changed anew before being presented in written form/spoken, and then furthered edited in the case of letters or written work presented, would likely be highly determined by situation, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it was more than a 50%. Reflection can lead to improvement. I believe this happens during the passage between ideas conception and actual expression/speaking, or writing, this can be days, months or years and thoughts and approaches can improved further still upon an editing phase/perhaps restarting a whole approach. One of the key ideas behind my now defunct and never fully created www.longtermnews.com, was that good ideas take time, many things shouldn’t be rushed, peace is a slow long term approach, but much more rewarding game, war is stupid and quick in it’s attitudes, reflecting the thoughtless animal within us, higher-order thinking often takes time and lots of versions and reiterations in order to produce something decent and worthy of time and effort.

I did not ever want the level of surveillance, watching and especially not attack to which I am subject to. I am not and never will be/have been a dictator, I do not want that level of attention or responsibility, the level of attention is already uncomfortably high. Additionally the envious nature of some people’s treatment of me, some people have decided I was their enemy, as I spoke highly of democracy and debate, namely the Royal Family (Britain) and Facebook, have made it their work to spite me and do directly what I disagree with. They have no reason to be envious, my life is highly difficult, largely as a result of their actions, and it make me never ever want to seek election. I don’t like attention at this scale. an enormous proportion of time would be dedicated to making high ranking officials feel good about themselves, which though is in itself is useful and valid, would probably detract from the additional need and pressure of serving country + humanity.