Why did I say some two ish stupid lines? During the weeks prior to playing the game everything was going wrong. I refused to play the game several times, over several days. I eventually agreed because I thought not playing was drawing attention to it and risked them doing it, as they were acting crazily and violently. I acted because the risk of not doing anything and not trying to stop the potential for the powers to release a pandemic was worse than doing something and failing and a potential risk of being framed. As previously stated, I know the exact place I stood, outside my kitchen, staring at a grey granite floor & I genuinely believed I had to pretend to want the pandemic to stop it, my brain underwent palpable changes and genuinely changed, thoughts changed. This, as with much of what I was experiencing was extremely scary. Never in my life I had thought I had to act in such a way. It was unnerving and risky to my own wellbeing, but I believe worth it. The risk of doing nothing to prevent it was worse on my conscience than the risk of trying & failing, and being framed. Risking my life quality and being framed was a smaller risk & worth the chance of stopping a pandemic. During this time, as repeated many times, many things were going wrong. That is why I tried to throw away the game & why I refused to play, as I tried multiple strategies to stop the pandemic. I will spend more time trying to obtain evidence of my innocence but as I know the truth, I know I will find reward in life or death.

If upon reflection of my thoughts and actions at the time, I thought I was guilty, that I had wanted to persuade the powers that be that they should start a pandemic, I would have killed myself. The opposite is true. I know I’m innocent, I know I tried to prevent it three times, by destroying the boardgame, not getting involved in the game and third by undergoing brain changes and then pretending to want it. I know have kindness to offer the world and so I’m trying with some painful slow progress, to gain evidence of my innocence. Regarding similar behaviour from myself, one obvious incidence of me risking my life for peace and democracy is when I wrote on longtermnews.com, to promote direct democracy, reduce corruption, prevent war and promote charitable aims. The second time is when is tried to kill myself March 29 2019 for several reasons, to prevent attacks on f&f, because I believed it would promote peace and because I thought I had almost no chance. The third time, I majorly risked my well-being and possibly life, after bluffing whilst playing the boardgame pandemic and undergoing self induced mind-changes. If this was not true, I would have killed myself.